Ellie Goulding Says She Feels At Peace With Herself After Years Of Struggling With Anxiety.
The Brit award-winning artist, 33, has spoken in the past about her mental health difficulties and having panic attacks while trying to record her third album, Delirium.
She said fitness, and in particular boxing, had helped her overcome her problems.
Goulding, who recently released her fourth studio album, Brightest Blue, told the Standard: “I feel a sense of peace in myself [but] I don’t wake up every morning and feel immensely confident.
Anxiety: Goulding has been open about her mental health struggles (Getty Images)
“We are all always going through those battles. I realised that it wasn’t worth constantly trying to eradicate that [her lack of confidence] from who I am, I have learnt to use that and let it be part of who I am.”
She added: “I accept every day is different and my mood is different every day.”
Goulding married art dealer Caspar Jopling, 28, at York Minster almost a year ago. The singer, who had previously dated McFly bassist Dougie Poynter and DJ Greg James, said marriage had given her the scope to reflect on past relationships.
She said: “When relationships don’t last, it is because you weren’t right for each other. Even if it feels like it was at the time. It has been interesting to reflect on that. When you meet the right person, it seems like — I haven’t had to overthink it. It is just something that happened and clicked. And that’s why I haven’t written much about my marriage.”
Goulding was speaking before a one-off performance of Brightest Blue at the V&A tomorrow. Called the Brightest Blue Experience, it will take place without an audience but will be recorded and live-streamed across the world.
The star will be accompanied by an ensemble of live musicians and secret special guests. She admitted she was slightly apprehensive about the performance, saying: “It is not what I imagined myself doing this time last year. Even if it goes dreadful wrong, it will be funny. it will be silly. We will get over it.
“I might not be as good without an audience. It might not be as electric as a live show but I really believe it is going to be something powerful.”
Goulding said she hoped the event would bring some much needed “positivity” amid the pandemic. “I am hoping it will be a really positive moment in what has been a really difficult time for a lot of people.”
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